(This is one of those that I am keeping on facebook, but I really like it so I am putting it up here)
I know this isn't very poetic but thinking about why I am so thankful makes me too happy to think in an organized way. But I hope you enjoy it because this is the THANKS I am GIVING to you all for making this a wonderful year.
Why I am thankful this year…
In the past year-
I have been a carefree high school student, a freaked out senior, been so uncertain of what I wanted to do, at the last minute decided precisely what and where I want to study, been so distraught about a million changes in my life to the point of losing lots of sleep, struggled through the change to find a happier place, went from being almost entirely closed-off to having learned to trust, seen both the Toasters and Reel Big Fish in concert, made someone smile the biggest I have ever seen them or anyone else smile, had some sense of a makeshift family, was heartbroken seeing my nephew suffer, rejoiced seeing him go through major neuro-surgery and be years ahead in his recovery, regretted how I treated someone just for them to show me what I mean to them, been told a million secrets, helped out people in tough times sometimes in a tough place myself, listened, laughed, gotten used to playing an acoustic guitar and love it, experienced so many new things, had extremely good grades in University, worked on a television show, survived sleeping on a mattress on the floor for months, had someone take in my dog so he wouldn’t be put down (thanks Milena (-: ), learned to be extremely non-judgmental, learned that all I truly want is close friendships, become ok with the fact that I have outgrown some of my friends (this is not aimed at those still in high school, I still love you all the same as I always have), developed a good work ethic, seen an ex-president speak and get a cellphone picture that looks like he is grabbing a woman's boob, gone through ridiculous lengths to shoot a simple short film, gained memories that will last forever, had so many times of great happiness. This is why I am thankful this Thanksgiving.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone,
Kenny
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Why I am actually legitimately unhappy (Monday, January 5, 2009 at 12:21am)
I had been very extremely happy for about a month or so (and normal happy for a while before that), but I am currently having a spell of suck. And since I have already written just about everything else about myself here's my reasons for the suck...
I didn’t really hate my job before, but when I think about it I can’t stand the idea of doing it for another semester.
I did really really well this past semester but I am afraid that I won’t do nearly as well next semester.
I met two of my cousins for the first time while I was in Arizona and I failed to make a good connection with them, especially the older one. They are now 10 and 12 and chances are they will be fully grown the next time I see them.
The soonest I will see my Mom again is August/September, but it could be as long as two years. Regardless this is a very long time. As if my family wasn't already broken enough...
I spent eleven hours (ELEVEN HOURS!!!) with a friend over break and didn’t get a chance to really talk to them. And by didn’t get I mean didn’t take the chance. I’m sure that if I tried hard enough I could have found a way.
I really thought that I had figured out who I was until a friend made one simple comment and now I have no idea once again. And I truly thought that I had it all figured out, I feel like I am back to square one now.
During finals week all I wanted to do was work on this writing project of mine, but now that I have time I have nothing to say.
I had a simple chance to really help a friend and I didn’t take it. I wanted to, I just… didn’t. Now I feel terrible about it even though I am certain they both don’t know and wouldn’t really mind.
I feel like I have unchanged since break started. It might as well be a few months ago…
I am not utilizing the people who I know will listen to me because I want to tell everything to a person who I don't have that kind of a relationship with. This makes me feel like a jerk to the people that have been there.
I didn’t really hate my job before, but when I think about it I can’t stand the idea of doing it for another semester.
I did really really well this past semester but I am afraid that I won’t do nearly as well next semester.
I met two of my cousins for the first time while I was in Arizona and I failed to make a good connection with them, especially the older one. They are now 10 and 12 and chances are they will be fully grown the next time I see them.
The soonest I will see my Mom again is August/September, but it could be as long as two years. Regardless this is a very long time. As if my family wasn't already broken enough...
I spent eleven hours (ELEVEN HOURS!!!) with a friend over break and didn’t get a chance to really talk to them. And by didn’t get I mean didn’t take the chance. I’m sure that if I tried hard enough I could have found a way.
I really thought that I had figured out who I was until a friend made one simple comment and now I have no idea once again. And I truly thought that I had it all figured out, I feel like I am back to square one now.
During finals week all I wanted to do was work on this writing project of mine, but now that I have time I have nothing to say.
I had a simple chance to really help a friend and I didn’t take it. I wanted to, I just… didn’t. Now I feel terrible about it even though I am certain they both don’t know and wouldn’t really mind.
I feel like I have unchanged since break started. It might as well be a few months ago…
I am not utilizing the people who I know will listen to me because I want to tell everything to a person who I don't have that kind of a relationship with. This makes me feel like a jerk to the people that have been there.
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